Hey guys! Since this is my first article for FTM Magazine I wanted to take a moment to introduce myself and tell you about my role in the trans community.  My name is Dani, I’m 34, I’ve been married for 5 years and currently reside in the Washington DC area.  I officially started my transition 2 years ago, which kind of makes me a late bloomer in most people’s eyes.  However, I am proof that it is never too late to follow your heart and become the person you know you truly are.

I finally decided to start my transition almost 3 years ago and I found it extremely difficult to find a doctor who dealt with trans men or prescribed testosterone.  It was even harder to find a doctor who accepted my insurance.  I can’t tell you the countless hours I spent on the computer and phone trying to find a doctor who would be able to help with my transition.  I eventually made a few appointments, but once they discovered I was born biologically female and wanted to transition, they refused to treat me.  One time that was particularly disappointing was when I booked an appointment with a doctor and had to wait an entire month before they could fit me in.  The day came, and I was so excited.  I got to the appointment and once the doctor saw me, he refused to help me.  He said he had no experience with transitioning and would not prescribe me testosterone.  The doctor also had no idea where I could go for help.  All in all, it took me about a year to find a physician who was willing to prescribe me testosterone and monitor me.  It was at that time I vowed to make this process easier for anyone who was in the same position as me.  I didn’t want anyone else to deal with the anxiety I had to deal with or to experience the let downs I did.  Honestly, I didn’t want another man to shed tears like I did because they were being forced to live in a body that was nothing more than a cage, and there was nothing they could do to escape.

Once I was able to start my transition I still had the issue of finding a community that I could call my own.  Being trans and black is a journey that cannot be truly expressed, and finding a tribe was very important to me but was proving to be fairly difficult. Over the years with racial tensions, the black community has banded together and protected one another, the same has happened within the LGBTQ community to mitigate homophobic threats. This realization made me wonder where I could go to find my people. Since I was still unable to find my place within the LGBTQ community, I created a safe place for myself, Trans In Color. Trans In Color is a place for trans men of color where they can voice their feelings and get advice from others who are going through the same type of situations they are.  Trans In Color is the brotherhood I needed.  There are amazing guys who are always available for advice, encouragement, and tips. I really hope reading my articles helps men from all backgrounds find answers to questions they might have, and realize they are not alone going through these hurdles in life.  Thank you for reading and I hope you will come back to follow my journey navigating this world as a black trans man.

Dani Barnhill-Farrell is an activist and entrepreneur. Since his transition in 2017 he has been heavily involved in the LGBTQ community. He is currently the Sr. Director of Marketing & Communications for the National Trans Visibility March which first took place in 2019. He is also the Chief Administrative Officer for Trans Solutions Consulting. Dani is passionate about helping trans men so he started two organizations, TBuddy & Trans In Color, that serve as resources to uplift and empower. TBuddy is a 24/7 support service for trans masculine individuals by trans masculine individuals and offers support through text, phone, Skype, and in person. Trans In Color is a safe space for trans masculine individuals of color. They offer weekly support groups, clothes drives, and a weekly podcasts available on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and Google Podcasts. He currently resides in the Washington DC area with his spouse.